Monday, October 30, 2006
:-)had a conversation- a looooong conversation- with a frend the other day and that got me thinking. He's one person who's been wid me for the past 21 years of my life, growing up together, learning things together, hating people, loving people, fighting and all that. being a cousin, it was not really possible to stop seeing each other even if had the stormiest of shouting matches over who had the best ball. [:P]
for me, he always was the brother i didnt have, the frend i wanted and the partner in crime. then he moved away, to a land far away [well, not far away, just a couple of hundred miles away in Islamabad :P]
and three years on, i found that i had lost the happy-go-lucky person we saw off the airport, and was replaced by a fat, dejected man with droopy forlorn looks. And whatever followed was enough to rattle ur bones and shatter ur trust in all things good. Then, being the muft-mushwara person that i am proud to be, i set out to bring back the frend i had. i wish i could advise my ownself that way :P
'I've lost hope in everything, people have so many expectations, my health is falling, i dont see any future for myself, i dont see myself ANYWHERE 2-3 years down the years' was his mantra.
Why do we lose hope in things? isn't that what life is all about? arent WE, the people, made to be tested? i believe k we cant ever be tested beyond what we can endure. All sticky spots come with a solution, even the darkets of spots [surf excel haina :P] that and a lot of other things, and i thought it all just washed over him like all my previous rantings.
He went back home yesterday, and i messaged to ask whether he got back in one piece. lol. and the reply came 'i've left behind a part of me- the dejected, depressed, disillusioned part of me- and i am a new person here'
dunno why, but that made my day!